BEDA.8 - Whale

Currently listening to: What I've Done by Linkin Park (Transformers Soundtrack)



As I laid lazily on my slightly uncomfortable couch, I stressed because my extremely difficult task of reaching for the remote deemed unsuccessful. Huffing in defeat, I munched on a sour cream and onion chip and settled for the Disney Channel show that was originally on, Jonas L.A. Watching this show of rich kids, girls falling in love with their best friends, and tedious actions of cute lovey-dovey boyfriend and girlfriend togetherness, I "hmph'd" in jealousy, wishing I had these girls fit bodies.

Let's face it, I'm overweight. Living life day by day feeling like a whale releases excess amounts of stress hormones to my brain and I end up feeling sick and bad. I try to forget about it by thinking about other things, reading a Harry Potter book, or, worst of all, eating.

I have to change this. I have a sense of style that I can't necessarily bring out because of my body. I want to dress up in different and exciting ways, but I can't because I can't fit in them. I want to go out with my friends and feel confident, but there's always something holding me back because I feel so self conscious. I want to run around and get all wacky without feeling this self conscious. I want to live life without having to have my weight in the back of my mind all the time. It's just...everything would just be so much easier.

So no, I'm not going on some crash diet. In the past, I've seen a nutritionist, so I am very well educated in the proper and healthy ways of eating. I also know so many different ways of working out. So I'm going to do something about this. From now on, I'll be blogging about my journey to my weight loss. Schedules, food logs, the whole SHABANG. Yes, I'll blog about other things, but I'll post my achievements to date.

Oh! And readers, please PLEASE don't comment saying "You're not fat!" yatta yatta. I get very humbled and thankful when people say this. But all I need right now is your support. So just leave words of encouragement. Believe that I can do this.

I believe that blogging about this will help a lot. I know if I start doing something about it, I'll end up forgetting and not caring. So blogging about it will definitely help.

And now I leave you with some old pictures of my car from the last days of High School:




























Yes, that says "Pigfarts, here I come." And the bear paw? We were the Home of the Bears.

Which reminds me of this lovely video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nuA5Y_TWns

AH ONE MINUTE LEFT?! WTF


21 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
338 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund
15 days till MOCKINGJAY

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

BEDA.7 - Productivity

WHY? Why do I ALWAYS leave my blogs last minute. I mean this literally. It's currently 11:55pm WTF

okay so today, I biked around the city with my family for this thing called "Summer Streets." Transit shuts down about five miles of roads just for the use of biking, jogging, rollerblading, and more. The roads are blocked from all cars. It was amazing and liberating to have so much room just to bike!

There were free stuff EVERYWHERE too! I got ten million bags of Pirates Booty (MY FAVORITE SNACK (11:57pm AHHH), buncha yogurt and more. They even have different stations where you get free water, free safety equipment (helmets), bike valet parking (yes, bike valet parking. You check in your bike, they will watch over it for you and make sure no one steals it. It was AWESOME (11:58 WTF)

Yeah. I'm done. And now I leave you with....GAH i have no more time

22 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
339 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund
16 days till MOCKINGJAY

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

BEDA.6 -

Currently listening to: Stacy's Mom

It's summer. I just want to savor some time to fooling around in the world of nothing and just relaxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

Today I:
took a shower
watched a play
watched ten million episodes of Buffy season two (SPIKE IS FINALLY HERE!)
took a long ass nap
watched more Buffy
ate

Very productive doncha think?

I also think that we should all just eat cupcakes and swim around in glow stick liquid.

Hey ladies, you are not alone when I say that IWANTABOYFRIEND. But, I've come to realize that I'm loving the single life. I could do whatever I want without worrying about someone ya know?
(insert longing sigh here)

And now I leave you with a video I made for one of my collab channels LanetoLeakycon:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u7umoSRlFeQ

23 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
340 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund
17 days till MOCKINGJAY

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

BEDA.5 - CHEESESTICK

Currently listening to: nothing

I haven't been sleeping a lot lately. So yesterday and last night I had a HUMONGO REM rebound. (REM rebound is when your body takes one night to catch up on all the sleep you weren't able to get during the week)

Not good. Because you end up missing YouTube videos, over 800 messages on a chat, catching up on TV shows, reading blogs, and WRITING BLOGS

UGH. The month just started! and I already missed a day? Stupid sleep.

Ah, I just looked over at the clock and realized that I have 6 minutes left to write this blog. Why do I always resort to procrastination?

So, fellow readers, what's you're favorite word? Because I like the word "cheesestick." I don't know why. It sounds kinda cool. AND it tends to add some kind of kick to awkward situations, ya know? (11:56pm AHH)

And I will now leave you with a video I made on an awesome collab channel called "Nerdfighterratio." My stupid self didn't live up to the potential that all the people in this awesome channel have. But I tried:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NCV4yDm9ZKI

(11:58pm)

24 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
341 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund
18 days till MOCKINGJAY

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

BEDA.3 - IN A RUSH

Currently watching: If You Really Knew Me

It's currently 11:53pm. I have 7 minutes left for todays BEDA vlog. crap

So today, all I did was watch the first season of Buffy. I have a couple of episodes left and I (11:54pm) can't wait to get caught up on more episodes. It's so witty and funny and suspenseful!! I love it!

11:55pm

I wonder what people feel about the nerdfighter/youtube community. Because I've recently encountered a person who doesn't like it very much. She thinks that the YouTube celebs have high egos and the Nerdfigter community is an internet cult thing (11:56pm) I love this community so much! It's filled with so many people who feel the same as me and we all, ironically, love Harry Potter. I can't imagine (11:57pm) life without this online community. It's so awesome.

I've decided to start working out. I wanna get off my ass and do something productive. WHO'S WITH ME!? Tomorrow, I'm gonna wake up early to jog. (11:58pm)

and here's a picture of me with my sister. I love her a lot:26 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
343 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

(ps. ended this blog at 12:02 am. fail beyond repair)

BEDA.2 - Take a deep breath

Currently listening to: nothing

As I take some time away from talking to my potter buddies via skype, let's reflect on the frequent happenings of Kristine's life, shall we?

Soooo, wanna know something funny? While all the slutty girls around town are worrying about whether or not they still hold a "popular status" - therefore, doing horrible things like drinking to stupidity, buying countless amounts of overpriced clothing, and shunning everyone out who doesn't wear foundation - I'm worrying if my extremely nerdy friends will spoil me on the fate of the tenth doctor in The End of Time.

No, I confess, I have not watched it yet. Yes, I confess, I feel like a fool. But isn't it fascinating how I'm worried about this? I'm worried about fitting in with my nerdy friends. and I LIKE IT. The great thing about this whole situation is that, no matter what, watcher of all Doctor Who episodes or not, my nerd friends will still accept me. I love them all for that.

Watching shows like "If you really knew me," I've come to learn that a lot of girls these days need to constantly be told that they're pretty or need to constantly do mean things to others in order to fit in with their popular friends. If they fail to do so, they're OUT of the "in crowd." That, my fellow readers, is not friendship. That is an example of snakey...slytherin....BULL CRAP. Only Voldemort would approve. Luckily in my case, if I haven't seen The End of Time or didn't watch Wheezywaiter's last vlog yet, my friends would never shun me. And I love them all for that.

These awesome people accept me for who I am. I accept them for who they are. And we all always end up having a kick ass time.

So, readers, I'm assuming you are all my nerd friends right? So, sit up straight. Go ahead! Sit up straight. Take a deeeeeeep breath. As you exhale, think about the awesomeness that your life entails. I like to do this after talking with you guys. Because having you as friends make me feel so happy.

As a recent graduate of High School, I always know that I'll never see snotty little jerks who call Harry Potter "gay" ever again. Being friends with you guys make me not care about those jerks anymore. Take a deep breath again, and remember that I love you all. A lot. <3

And here's the greatest video ever made, made by one schmexy Canadian - Alex Dahlberg aka Kira902k a sexy god:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1IwhLAyEVo

Watch it. It practically made my life.

27 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
344 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles

BEDA.1 - Oh College

Currently listening to: Do You Like Me by ALL CAPS





I'm 18 years old. It's summer. I'M MOVING FOR COLLEGE IN 28 DAYS.

Today, my family and I went a bit dorm shopping. I can't wait to decorate my dorm room and freak out my room mate because of all the harry potter posters and cardboard cut outs. ahh it's gonna be amazing.

Once I move, I'LL BE FREE AS A BIRD. No more "time to go to bed Kristine." Honestly, like I mentioned earlier, I'M 18 YEARS OLD. Do I STILL need to be told when to go to bed!?

I recently got out of being grounded. The whole beginning of summer, I was grounded because of a speeding ticket. I wasn't allowed to hang out with ANY OF MY FRIENDS, drive anywhere leisurely, and more. It sucked so bad.

This is why I can't wait to leave. I'm moving to a school that's a 45 minute train ride away from the city. I'll be chillin with my potter buddies there WHENEVER I WANT TO! AND the new york city wizard rock fest is gonna be killer. Oh yeah, and studying film and ONLY FILM. Ugh that's gonna be so much fun. I can't wait any longer.

And here's a picture of someone I love dearly: Kara Sabbagh. I don't know what I'd do without her. Enjoy :D

28 days TILL I MOVE
345 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in the Leakycon fund

Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles