Currently listening to: What I've Done by Linkin Park (Transformers Soundtrack)
As I laid lazily on my slightly uncomfortable couch, I stressed because my extremely difficult task of reaching for the remote deemed unsuccessful. Huffing in defeat, I munched on a sour cream and onion chip and settled for the Disney Channel show that was originally on, Jonas L.A. Watching this show of rich kids, girls falling in love with their best friends, and tedious actions of cute lovey-dovey boyfriend and girlfriend togetherness, I "hmph'd" in jealousy, wishing I had these girls fit bodies.
Let's face it, I'm overweight. Living life day by day feeling like a whale releases excess amounts of stress hormones to my brain and I end up feeling sick and bad. I try to forget about it by thinking about other things, reading a Harry Potter book, or, worst of all, eating.
I have to change this. I have a sense of style that I can't necessarily bring out because of my body. I want to dress up in different and exciting ways, but I can't because I can't fit in them. I want to go out with my friends and feel confident, but there's always something holding me back because I feel so self conscious. I want to run around and get all wacky without feeling this self conscious. I want to live life without having to have my weight in the back of my mind all the time. It's just...everything would just be so much easier.
So no, I'm not going on some crash diet. In the past, I've seen a nutritionist, so I am very well educated in the proper and healthy ways of eating. I also know so many different ways of working out. So I'm going to do something about this. From now on, I'll be blogging about my journey to my weight loss. Schedules, food logs, the whole SHABANG. Yes, I'll blog about other things, but I'll post my achievements to date.
Oh! And readers, please PLEASE don't comment saying "You're not fat!" yatta yatta. I get very humbled and thankful when people say this. But all I need right now is your support. So just leave words of encouragement. Believe that I can do this.
I believe that blogging about this will help a lot. I know if I start doing something about it, I'll end up forgetting and not caring. So blogging about it will definitely help.
And now I leave you with some old pictures of my car from the last days of High School:
Yes, that says "Pigfarts, here I come." And the bear paw? We were the Home of the Bears.
Which reminds me of this lovely video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2nuA5Y_TWnsAH ONE MINUTE LEFT?! WTF
21 days TILL I MOVE FOR COLLEGE
338 days TILL LEAKYCON 2011
$10 saved up in my Leakycon fund
15 days till MOCKINGJAY
Peace out homeskillets.
Until next time,
Pickles4muggles
Ok, first off, I'm going to ignore what you said about not saying you're not fat in the comments.
ReplyDeleteKristine, you're not FAT. Yes, you may have more weight than you should, and you can afford to lose some. But don't think of yourself as an over-weight whale. Seriously. There are a lot more whale-esque people out there. Love yourself. <3
But exercising is a good idea. I need to, too. We should do it together! Keep each other motivated! I swore I would be active this summer, but I have done absolutely nothing, except for roflcoptour and biking once. It's pathetic.
And don't be afraid to wear your fashion. In that picture with your car (YOU HAVE A CAR, WHAT?)you look soo pretty, and that dress looks great on you.
And just so you know, you're gorgeous. I honest to god find you soooo pretty. omg. <3
And hey, if you want, I can make you a KRISTINE IS FAT facebook page, and post pictures like this: http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-snc4/hs037.snc4/34224_469767967570_699707570_6389331_4684583_n.jpg
of you on it. And make a CHEESESTICK KRISTINE shirt.
You know, if you think it'll keep you motivated. ;)
Also, that comment was almost as long as your blog. *proud*
ReplyDeleteI'm going to say it anyway. You're not fat! However, I do think its a great idea for everyone to exercise, eat well, and be confident about their body! And I do believe that you can do it! Oh and I love your sense of style in your pics, so don't be afraid to wear what you love and love what you wear! :)
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